I think I am over it..
I know a lot of my watchers watched me in the past for my Irken art, but honestly, I find no motivation from it anymore. My ideas have run dry, I might draw something random once in a blue moon, but really I feel I did my time. I have drawn Irkens for the past 12 years and I finally feel burnt out >.> Ive gotten inspired by doing more Sonic stuff, Ive been a long time fan for about 28 years? Its something I feel like dipping into. I know the fandom can be toxic, but that comes with any fandom.
Anyways, I hope I didnt upset to many people
<3
The reason I have not been on..
The few of my active watchers may have wondered where I have been, sorry, its just been a really bad time for my family, husband and I. Last month in July, my sister in-law died unexpectedly...
I wont go into a bunch of details, but its been very hard to deal with, a very special part of the family is now gone, and we have been needing to be there for each other. I will try to become more active again soon, but we are all still in our grieving process and trying to figure out how to deal with this. I have been wanting to draw again, but my mind is not in the right place at the moment. I still have my moments where I just break down and cry sometime.
But yeah, sorry for not being here, I hope everyone understands..
Hey I come back at least once a year...!
I'm confuzzled about this, but I do think it looks cool. A lot better than the baby shit green 
I will keep it short and sweet for you guys (who ever may be left watching me xD)
I bought a house!
So I have been really busy with moving, and I tell you what, buying a house is a huge process, with a lot of paperwork and stressful crap! I'm finally moved in though, but I still have to unpack some crap.Also, I am getting married next year!
Adulting is fun!
and scary
I'll try not to be dead
If I don't respond right away, just give me time. I've been working a lot and I have a lot of other real life stuff going on so don't take it personal. I'm old and slow XD
Update on life
Not much to update on, everything has been pretty normal, just battling some inner demons, aka my depression. Its something I have been suffering with for the past 10 years and it has been a struggle, but I am finally working on it cause I somehow finally convinced myself that I am worth it. Before I would always let my depression run my thoughts and take me into a reality that doesn't exist...if that makes any sense.
Basically I would take something that someone said, or did, and my mind would take it as something negative and it would make me feel sad, or hurt, which in effect causes a spiral of other negative thoughts, creating this false reality that people don't actually care and everyone hates me in some sort of way. Well, it took a serious long talk with my brother and my boyfriend to make me realize that I don't need to live that false reality, and the true reality is not as bad. Yes life is hard and there are times that will make you stress and struggle, but you have to keep moving forward and work through things. As of right now, if one of those negative thoughts creeps up on me, I try to distract myself by listening to youtube, and I convince myself that it is really not that big of a deal, and not to take everything everyone says or does to heart. This whole thing goes on a much deeper scale as to why I have depression and anxiety, but I won't get into those details because they are personal
So if anyone out there is battling depression as well, just remind yourself that those inner demons will try to twist your reality and make you feel worse, causing more depression. Don't let the spiral happen. Tell the depression to f*** off, tell yourself that your worth it. Love yourself, life is short, and we are here for only a moment it seems, so enjoy your stay
make the best of any situation. Don't focus on the negatives and look at the positives. When you feel like your struggling, just smile and accept the challenges in life. The sun will continue to rise and whatever may be bothering you will eventually subside.Also.. it sounds silly, but I kind of take inspiration from this song ^^' If you listen to the words it sends a good message.
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Alright, im done rambling lol